Feelings & Emotions

Balling up a piece of paper is what you feel. It’s an identification with an action that causes you hold something tangible. To focus your being toward an object for destruction.

Emotions are what carry you through. What gets you from here to there. What moves you. What keeps pushing you and challenging you. What forces you to deal and face the very things you’d wish you could run, hide… cover your face up from. Bury your head in the sand type ISH.

But seeing the sun. Well that’s something different. No matter how you see it you SEE THE LIGHT (God reference – isn’t He Good?! All the time). No time to let your guard down and let in something that just wants to get out. When you free yourself… when you allow something to exit you without you stuffing it back in and keeping it somewhere it doesn’t want to be… YOU ARE FREE.
Two feelings often related and misunderstood to be the other. So like many things in our life the opposite is confused with truth and truth the opposite of confused.
Emotions now can exist without feelings. How you say? because it does not need to be in order to exist. What I say? I mean that an emotion being something that moves you is created in the moment. Like the first time you hear a symphony or something like that… (A ha…) At first glance it is amazing. Beautiful to your eyes because your ears have yet to witness and put into motion the idea of what it creates and represents in front of you. MOVING…

Emote I believe is the root of that word. (Websters online) – to give expression to emotion especially in acting.

Feel is a false safety. It makes you think and often go with your first response. Well if you didn’t take Chemistry would you still know how to do it?

Definition of FEEL transitive verb
1a : to handle or touch in order to examine, test, or explore some quality b : to perceive by a physical sensation coming from discrete end organs (as of the skin or muscles) 2a : to undergo passive experience of b : to have one’s sensibilities markedly affected by 3: to ascertain by cautious trial —usually used with out 4a : to be aware of by instinct or inference b : believe, think <say what you really feel>

RIGHT!!!!

What more can I say that I haven’t already? The words define themselves. They are tangible. But the realist real of it all is that I have emotions. Feelings I choose to have. Just because one isn’t expressed doesn’t mean the other is absent.

It’s like love+feeling=physical(sex)
love+emotion=eternal(faith)

Emotion, motion, the act of moving is linked to perception only in that what you think as movement, as responses, reactions, appears to the eyes. But like brainwaves, when unmonitored how can you determine the activity that spikes lines like giant waves. In a flash, the instant of an instance, past the darkness, pass the light, past and through all the boundaries that would hold me prisoner, stuck in the smothering, burying of the joy that is my soul the happiness that is my being… there is no measurement… no gauge… no way to see if what is – is there… like a flashback, a dream lived in the moment of that moment I move through motions admiring, acknowledging, accepting and letting it go. How do you sum that up into words? The actuality of and totality of being? #wordsLOSTamongMEANING

Discouraging Discouragers (be gone!)

 What is suppose to seem like a “simple statement” is never actually is. When we think of “misery loves company” we simply think that people who aren’t happy don’t want you to be happy because they aren’t. Well, there’s nothing simple about that statement and if you don’t think that you’ve allowed the person making that statement to rob you then you’re wrong.

We have parents, family and loved ones who tell us “you can’t”. Like “misery loving company” simply because they can’t imagine themselves capable of defeating odds or “doing the impossible” they embark on a campaign that convinces you of the same! You can’t. Their limitation because your limitation. Your limitation becomes another’s limited ability. It’s a vicious cycle that continues from one to another like an infestation (meaning – to spread or swarm in or over in a troublesome manner).

My dad has always told me there is no such word as can’t. I didn’t realize how right he was because I was too young to grasp what he was actually saying. He wasn’t saying Taalima if you apply yourself and don’t succeed then you don’t succeed. He was saying that you are only limited by what you limit yourself to. If you don’t try you won’t succeed (another supposedly simple statement).

The truth is we can “do anything we put our mind to”. The sad truth is that we don’t believe it. We doubt before there is proof but we want proof in order to believe. Think about it. We doubt before there is proof but require proof in order to believe. We are discouraged and in the process of fearing and lacking we are limited.

Fear, (meaning – to be afraid or apprehensive) keeps us in check. It keeps us in a place of constant discouragement. It keeps us relying on it. It feeds on anything that is contrary to it. Fear is an irrational state of thinking. It’s not in accordance with reasoning which gives you the sense that rational is rational. Or the agreement of what’s “normal”. (What do I mean? Moral coding is so different from one individual to another because of our abilities to rationalize what’s WANTED instead of what we KNOW – you might have to read my blog on love to understand the fullness of what I’m really saying.)

Fear keeps us ensnarled in the web it creates. Like those afraid of spiders, bugs and other things that can’t harm us (or don’t even mean to do us harm). People fail to see how they make a difference. How they add to the greatness of our experience. Like spiders who catch bugs that are often considered pesky to us. They’re like natures own “exterminator”. Yet they are feared based on a discomfort. Take comfort in the fact that we all share in this experience, this life, this planet. Fear is a form of lack and there is more then enough space for us all to “survive”. (Remember too that the creepy things, the crawly things came before us and in a sense inherited the places in which we make our domains.)

To go back to an idea, normality we think of as a paradox. It is something I’ve often said and thought to be true. I’m not normal. I don’t want to be normal. Normal is. What it isn’t are the people who try to define themselves in it. People who say they are normal are often hiding behind the word. Too scared to live up to who they are TRULY they put on a façade of what they think wants to be seen. Hmm… they are discouraged to be who they are because? People are discouraging toward our true nature.

What I have learned and what we all must understand is that we are truly only limited by our limitations. It’s a self inflicted wound. It prepares and sets the foundation for fear which untreated affects our lives and the lives of others.

Warnings and restrictions are a way to limit what’s capable. We reserve special names for those of us who are able to remove barriers as Masters (and any other name you would like to associate with that term). We think they are the only ones who can do it because it seems that so few are “able to GET IT”. You’re right. So many people are willing to limit themselves so that they can’t get it. “I can’t do that the way he did it!” Why? Humans are all capable of obtaining the same levels it depends on willingness to apply and the understanding that you CAN!

Despite what you think you know, (which I’ve said before, as long as you’re thinking, you’re questioning; as long as you’re questioning you don’t know) you can as an idea and as the truth is liberating. It releases you from the bondage that fear will place on your life. It releases you from lack. Most of all, it release you from discouraging discouragers.

I believe the song goes something like “can’t no one hold me down, I have to keep on moving”. Keep moving. Keep being unstoppable and there will be nothing in life that gets in your way.

What Happens When Love + Love = No Love At All?

You are left wondering where did the love go. Well the love didn’t go anywhere. It’s still there the people aren’t. (If you believe as I do that the energy that flows flows for all time, That once created it, it doesn’t ever disappear it becomes something else) Sometimes we focus too much on the wrong things that we don’t see the right things.

Then there is always the chance that two people don’t see the same things and see things differently/from a different perspective. No one is wrong and no one is right. When you see that and are willing to get past it or at least try, ( if all things are a “work in progress” – you make progress through work, repetition and gradually) nothing get’s left out. You’re remembered because you remember to. You do because it should be what it does. 

Although some of us are able to and ready to get things in moments (genius in your own way) there are a few that still believe they can’t simply because they hadn’t even tried. (I was once and maybe still that person. I’m trying new things all the time but I guess not applying all the new things all the time./I never know what i’m saying. Even as I read that back I think I try those things and it seems they don’t work or i’m doing it wrong.

Even when things have rules you have to wonder if you’re doing those right why are they not working out? THere comes a moment and you realize (AHA) that if you’re not doing what IT says then you have to be honest with yourself. It’s not going to work. love + love = no love as long as whatever you’re trying is what’s causing you to part from it.

We start off wanting to blame God but that doesn’t work. IF you blame God for what you do then you weren’t hearing the love you’re trying to seek. Loving one’s other “self” takes a talk you have to always be willing to have. It takes you to take the moment and apply all the things you’re thinking to God. (It takes you a moment like this to realize. Be grateful for and enjoy the tears that burn and sing down your face for a joyful reason.) You are who God wants you to be. It’s a matter of you thinking (not that you’re really thinking and thats the problem) that who you are and who everyone else  IS, the Love of God (the One. Being at One.)

We struggle against the contrary (contrary-a fact or condition incompatible with one another according to Merriam Websters dictionary) and think that in turn we are struggling to get the things we want. Listen to that. Struggle, struggle, struggle. Who wants that? Not you, not God.

With ease I let the words flow into me
poetry, I rhyme and reason for a purpose
for a season.

I love and let if flow from me a whole of me that takes control of me. the good the memories of what we had.

But I have something, Someone, some love that loves the best of me. That loves the whole of me. That completes me and promises to set me free. My God.

And although I may treat Him unfairly He gives me love unconditionally as long as I let His love in. He keeps me from the harm of sin and protects me like I am the image of Him. Something not to be tarnished but polished.

I’m learning to focus. My distraction is the attraction for breaking away. From leaving this life of punishment, tiredness and energy draining things that make me less then who I am. Less then who I’m meant to be. We have to learn to truly let go and let God.

This is not the… hmm anybody want burger king? kinda crowd. It takes you to think that you’re grown to realize you are still a kid if you think your way can be “the right way”.

It is something scary to truly ex\\accept because everything else in life has made you feel like it/you weren’t trustworthy of the self (the preservation and survival of the chills you think of as frills which leads you to shaking the Goodness away.

If I’m learning nothing else that for every push there is shove. For God there is only love. The one real constant. Love + Love = Love. You would know that if you knew yourself.

We have to learn that we are the words in which we use to convey from one another to each other. When we do that there is nothing to misinterpret but rather a knowing (an already convinced idea). Hence you are who you say you are literally.

Too often we seek and are at the will of the wrong things. Thats why all those things

(money, sex, food, sleep) when placed before God doesn’t bring the happiness you’re seeking. I guess another thing i’m learning. Or I can say I learn is that a good distraction is a greater sin. There is always a time and place for each of these things because the point is not to be without it’s to be WITHIN! 

Don’t worry. You’re always changing and adjusting to who you’re going to be but like time there is no visual change only what you want to see when you look there. It’s a constant. Change is. God remains the same. You could remain the same if you didn’t continue to get distracted.

When you let go and do so with a different  “lead” = Leader/God you realize you’re going places you’ve always thought & knew you could go. Doubt is a distraction. It keeps you from what you want faster then anything else. As soon as the thought “I can’t” (my real in person father told me from a young age that there is no so word as I can’t and yet I was too blind to see it. I could have saved my own life in that moment and instead I used the words he said and never forgot but HELP ME SING IT…. DIDN’T APPLY.

Application like practice is what gets you there. It truly is a snowball. Tiny thousands of little individual snow flakes rolled into one and combining to continue and  make a force that cannot be stopped. (Sound familiar? God…) And just think, is that who we are suppose to come. Who we are in His image. And it all starts with a thought. Love.

Until we can see that in ourselves we won’t ever see it in a person. “We create” shouldn’t be and yet it is a paradox in which we often illude ourselves to. YOu wonder how you get there when really you know the answer. Somewhere along the lines you walked off the path and instead at arriving you got lost somewhere.

There goes that word. Struggle. You wrestle with the idea and why the bible tells you that God literally wrestled with “your idea” it’s because it’s not His and it shouldn’t be you. We spend so much of our lives trying to tune things out. Look ahead and “get there” that we’re always right where we are. Still questioning and still unknowing. The words touch me in a way that makes me want to crawl out of my skin. 

Unknowing makes you feel trapped. It leads to doubt and I guess thats why they are kin. These ideas my sound familiar but they are my words. They are Gods words and thats why it sounds so familiar to us. We are echoing an unknowing thing and God tries to help us know but answering. Too often we’re too busy talking still to pay attention. (I guess me like right now)

When you make everything Good in your life. Your life is good. It’s a responsibility to yourself and you even start to notice that those around you are good too and blessed by your pressence. Hmmm… love + love = love.

We always say well we have to be realistic. God wants to know and i guess you should too that when you’re being realistic what are you being “real about”? What you think? or what you know?

Why do people fall out of love themselves with essentially themselves (or other halves I believe you call it?) Because we were never taught to believe that we were truthy worthy of it; deserved it; recognized it; EMBRACE IT; because we thought instead of knew what love is. You wouldn’t have to do all that you would just LET IT BE. Remain the constant of what IT is AND WHO IT IS (that is also we. Start to know it, start to show it and watch what grow-eth) We plant the seed that becomes a tree. The only way to rot is from the inside out. Outside of you (like this world and the things we think “damage” us is only the image) in can then only be a reflection of what you’re casting (your sense of beauty) – or 

A lot of us use the word so loosley that some don’t believe in it’s meaning. It’s why hope is such a powerful thing. You are willing to imagine so much more then what you feel is limited to you. It’s not love.

Listen people, thoughts like beliefs leave you to believe there is something you don’t know. Space even if a tiny one can create a place where the negative lies and (in) wait-s.
When you love passionately – when you love in a way in which you are not focused the absurdity of it melts away. Like time you realize you can exist unlimiteldy. A way in which you are not limited, weighed down but instead lifted up like help me sing it… GOD. A force beyond measure and yet so great No one Thing can contain IT but all the things that contain it does!!!! It took me a second to catch on to that too!

I almost tried to lose myself but I’m taking the moment to remember that which applies and is actually real, realistic not being a focus but rather a knowing. You are and God is something beyond measure, so great that that all the things/people/places the meaning of what a noun is. the all inclusive is apart of that which includes you.

I am not done…. Everything you see are the things God created. When you see yourself in them all you see is God and then things He created in you. The things in which you also help to create. He gives us and inspires within us the power to create. Thats what love is. It  is creating. Creative. Created. It is alive and spreads into the very things that go into it’s making. You are what you make should be what we truly mean when we say you are what you eat!

People get lost. Easily. Too easily. Forgetting that instead of laughing at “you are what you eat”, remembering that it means you are that which you make. Art, love, war. It’s the only to love = love + love.

It seems that I can stop here or keeping going. The greatest thing about ending is that I know there is no end. No time. There is only that which I create and once started it can’t be stopped. It was created at the beginning and it will be always LOVE. (NOT – No One Thing in which you choose to leave behind).

Life will take you where you want to go, Hope will take you where you wish to be. God will lead you to what you truly are. The power lays within the word. The word lays within our heart. Our Heart is what leads us to love. Love is a knowing. Knowing is acknowleding the absence of thought. Thought robs us from creating. Creating that which is created(LIMITLESS.) Free’s us from the notion of time. Time has no beginning or End. No end means you can continue going. Love remains true to ITself, it continues going. Truth is what you know when you learn to know God. You are God and all these thing that become apart of you is exactly the same thing He had in mind when He Created us in His image.

12:37am. Wedsnday March 15, 2011. Full.

What’s the Proper Way to Make a Move?

 I don’t know. I don’t make moves. I go in for the kill and make the moves while I’m (balls deep, head over heels, knee deep) in there…

 If sex is what you have/had in mind then I think we should definitely begin with sex. How one makes that move determines whether or not they’ll actually get what they’re asking for. Sex like life takes confidence (not to mention some skills). You can’t go into it all willy nilly just expecting the best. When you do that you leave room for doubt in your mind, which lets in fear, which creates insecurities, which leads to more things that you don’t want!

Sex being the object start out with sex. Don’t go for kissing! Kissing sometimes and depending on who and how, is not always the trick. In your mind you may be a great kisser. In the other persons mind it may not be all they hoped for (or vice versa). If kissing is what you want then kiss places that are sensual. Kiss places that are hard to reach but arousing. Kiss anything other then the lips on the face and you may be off to a better start then you hoped!

Again, sex being your object start out with sex! Go for the slow grinding, dry humping imitations of sex. Often times when you do that well it will also get the other person “heated” aka turned on! Sometimes especially if you’re one to fantasize about sex (even while you’re doing it) “dry humping” is a great way to get the ideas flowing. It can create fantasies about how to proceed next or where you’d like to go from here. When you’re insecure about what you should be doing, going with what feels right is an awesome place to start (plus the possibilities from there are endless).

Sex being the object, don’t start out patting, rubbing or giving “eyes”. It’s almost as though you’re asking for sex. Now some people may differ on this part but for most if you have to “ask” for it then no you can’t have it (who wants to give up something you can already have). You put yourself on blast giving looks, patting or rubbing in non sensual ways (that by the way you interpret as signals to) the hope that leads to sex somewhere somehow… Hmm… sounds like you’re scared. If what you want scares you maybe you should wait until you’re done with your fear. Or the best way to overcome fear is to face it. Don’t hold back, don’t be intimidated just do what you came to do (or hope to come in doing).

I’m not saying skip foreplay because it does help. But foreplay could just be considered for play (especially if you’re in the mood and you feel that you and the other person are in the same place). It’s like playing an imaginary game that sometimes makes you play against yourself (really by yourself). It’s like kissing. You think it will help you get one step closer to your goal when in actuality it can be a huge set back.

You’re opening is important! It could make or break you actually getting to sex. So, IF YOUR OBJECT IS SEX START THERE AND INCORPORATE EVERYTHING ELSE INTO IT. Foreplay will be hotter, kissing hotter, patting and touching definitely hotter (who doesn’t like hot hands all over them?), eye contact hotter (people often have trouble with that in regular life and situations so sex + insecurities = not a good look lol).